Procrastination

Damn. Here I go again. I'm supposed to be doing something else right now---writing an article. But of course I am here on my blog typing an entry. LOL---funny thing is, I haven't been here in over a month. Only when I am actually supposed to be doing something else is when I decide to write an entry. Crazy. Anyways, I thought I would take the time to reflect on last week. My girlfriend came into town, (we went to school together), and she visited for a little over a week. I have to say I felt like the worst host ever, cause she couldn't have come at a worser time. I work in TV, and a 3 month strike just ended, so we've been very busy getting productions going. And of course that meant I wasn't able to take of time from work. So needless to say, she spent a lot of time in our (my sister and I) apartment. Which is really sad, considering we live in LA and there is so much to do. But I was just happy because my friend was here. I didn't realize how much I missed her until she got here. Although I have to say, she did read me the riot act one night, and let me know that I've "changed"---and not neccessarily in a good way. I don't know, I listened to her and received what she had to say. I mean, she is my friend who I've known for years---one of my bestfriends---and she of all people would know wht indeed is different about me within the 4 years I've been away from her. Some of the "changes" noted were that I was mean, not spiritually balanced, anxiou and impatient, and just all around negative. I'm not the soft, positve, nice, open, spiritually sound Sheika I once was. I received her criticism, becuase I do feel that she was correct on some points. I must admit I am in a weird place right now. But I somewhat felt that my friends observation....