A Better Quality of Life

I want a better quality of life. I don't want to be rich, but I do want to be able to live a life where if I wanted to, I could get whatever it is that I want. I never had a taste for name brand, or rather the "finer things". I just simply like the idea of being able to handle my business, such as paying for my car repairs when my engine breaks down, or paying my rent without having to save half of last weeks paycheck, etc.

I have this strong need for indepence, and the need to achieve the things that I've set out to do before I can become remotely comfortable with doing anything else, like going out to dinner or chilling with my friends at the movies, etc. It has almost become a sickness to some degree. No, I take that back...not a sickness, but an obsession. I kinda feel like some things need to be put on the back burner in order for me to fulfill this void of accomplishment.

This weekend I have been on a high like I've never been before for 2 days straight, all because I completed my first draft of my speculatory script. Mind you, I've been working on this spec for what seems like ages. But the feeling and pride that I feel from this accomplisment, no matter how long it took me, is like no other feeling that I've had before. I mean I literally feel like I'm the shiznit, and can do anything that I set my mind out to do. Not to mention that I read my script, and at times had to ask myself "Damn, did I write this?" LOL, I laugh right now becasue if you know me you know that I am one who is rarely prideful, especially when it comes to my writing. I am actually very humble, to the point where I somewhat lack confidence in myself and my ability.

However, after crossing that finish line, I've never felt better about my future, and about being able to provide that better quality of life that I so long for... and can't nobody stop me from doing so.