Mind Blowing

Lord knows I should probably be reading the good book right now, trying to gain more wisdom, insight, and understanding---maybe then my mind would be put at ease. "Mind blowing"---that's the title of a song by a chick from the 90's who went by the name of 'Smoothe'. I always wondered what happened to her, she was pretty bad (so I thought), because she was rapping and singing. And yeah she actually had a real voice, unlike some of these manufactured entertainers today. But, as usual, I digress. My title is the way I've been feeling about a lot of things lately, and thus why I have a lot of questions: How is it that in this "progressive" world we live in, people who do sneaky and backstabbing things, seem to thrive and be rewarded for their actions? How do they even sleep at night? How can someone who yearns for love, not be willing to offer it themselves? How can someone insult you for trying to achieve your dream of being independent and self-sufficient? Is being real a friend who is not? Again, why do assholes continue to succeed and surpass those who are diligent, and hardworking? Why are people threatened by my intelligence, my dilligence, and presence? What the hell does the color of my skin have to do with anything? Why are things that should be so simple, so complicated? Are there even any answers to my questions?

I think there are, and they could be staring me right in the face. I'm just not sure I'm ready to look at them.